Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Joshua's Heaven Date Balloon Release
Four lined up and looking at the place were Joshua died one year ago today.
Ready for launch! Memories all written down on the balloons.
Thank you Zena for coming today.
It means alot to me that you were willing
to come and share in remembering Joshua.
We released 11 balloons up into the air today in memory of our Joshua. I can't believe a whole year has passed since he left us here on earth and went to Heaven. We were happy that Zena came along as she was one of Joshua's best friends. I took some video of the balloons floating away but still haven't been able to upload a video onto this site. I didn't get any regular pictures of all the balloons unfortunatly. It is hard to film and let them go at the same time. :)
Thank you, everyone, who sent up special prayers and thoughts for us and Joshua today. It has been a long hard year. I still cant believe he has been gone that long. I expect him to come running in the door anytime.
One Year Ago Today
One Year Ago Today
When I awoke one year ago today
Everything seemed to be going ok
I didn't believe anything would go wrong
We were happy and our family was strong.
You were grinning and enjoying the sun
Lets go get Micah I said, We gotta run
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As we climbed in the car one year ago today
Everything was doing ok
You were in a good mood, a big smile on your face
Jacob and Lynnie too
Off we went to pick up Micah
Then we could have fun for a few
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We stopped at Wallmart along the way
And everything was still ok
Brand new water shoes, they were bright orange,
Graced your feet as we headed to the car
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Waiting for Micah at the church one year ago today
Everything was still doing ok
You ran around having fun and wanting to play
While I chatted with fellow parents
No strong urge or thought to pray
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We ate Subway one year ago today
Everything was going ok
You ordered a meatball sub just like your Dad
Nothing warned me that soon I would be so sad.
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You and Micah were best buddies one year ago today
And everything sure seemed ok
You both asked "Can we go to the spillway slide to swim?"
Dad and I said yes and off you went.
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How I wish I would have taken more time to say goodbye
I couldn't know that my yes meant you would die.
One year ago today my son everything was ok
Until sometime between 2 and 3 that day.
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When I answered the phone a year ago today
I didn't know that every thing had forever changed
Everything was not ok!....You my boy had gone away
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...Lost in the river?
No it cant be!
Joshua my son!
Come back home to me!
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You are so much a part of my life
Not having you here just isn't right
Memories still fill my heart each day
Even now a whole year since you went away...
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Beautiful curly hair for me to run my fingers through
Your silly voice saying..."I love you Lynnie Poo"
Funny crab walking up the stairs
Begging to go to county fairs
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You liked rap on 104.7
You wanted a green mansion when you got to Heaven
Hiking and swimming, adventures and fun
Your hair getting blond in the hot summer sun
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You hated turkey but loved honey baked ham
You were growing into such a tall handsome young man
Cub Scouts, singing, VBS,
teasing siblings and making a mess.
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You love to travel and go on trips
most of the knees in your pants had big rips
The girls were starting to fall in love with you
You weren't quite sure what to do
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So many memories and thoughts fill my heart
each moment of each day we are apart
Wait for me my son with our dear Lord
'til the day I join you and we receive our reward
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I love you Joshua and miss you more then you could imagine!
Every single day since that day....
One year ago....today that you went to Heaven
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Poem - I Hurt - Unknown Author
Here is a poem I found on a grief support group. I really like it. :) I don't know who the original author is.
I said, "God I hurt."
And God said, "I know."
I said, "I cry a lot."
And God said, "That's why I gave you tears.
"I said, "Life is so hard."
And God said, "That's why I gave you loved ones.
"I said, "But my loved one died!"
And God said, "So did mine!"
I said, "It's such a great loss."
And God said, "I saw mine nailed to a cross."
I said, "But your loved one lives!"
And God said, "So does yours!"
I said, "Where is he now?"
And God said, "My son is by my side and Your son is in my arms."
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Sunday, July 13, 2008
4th of July
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
4th of July is coming
What were we doing this time last year? Today, the 1st of July, Jeff came home from 3 months in the hospital. Joshua was soooo excited to have his Daddy home. Grandma Mary and Grandpa Jim were here and took a family picture of our family. (We didn't know it would be our last together with Joshua). We had a wonderful 4th of July with Jeff and Joshua both present and happy. Joshua loved to go up to the Casper Events Center for Independence Day. We laid out on the grass around 10:00 PM for the fireworks. Joshua was snuggled up in his favorite blanket. We had a wonderful day with no idea that in just 3 weeks we wouldn't have our Joshua with us any more.
This year brings sad thoughts and memories. I wish so much that Joshua were here to spread his excitement for the holiday to everyone. He would be making all sorts of plans and begging to do all sorts of interesting activities. Jeffrey may not be home with us this year for the 4th either. He is in the hospital again and we don't know for how long. How do you make a holiday special when so many are absent? What shall we do...just the 4 of us? Go to the event center and remember. Smile, give thanks to the Lord for the 4 of us and try to make new memories together. The hurt and sadness will be present. The thoughts and memories. The questions and confusions and wonderings what if. And also the hope of things to come. A peace that passes all understanding...."All things do work together for the good of those love the Lord and are called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28. It is that gazing into the future...our eternal future together with our Lord and with Joshua that brings a desire to keep on living each day for our Lord. To continue loving and caring and working and living each day without Joshua until the day he is there to greet me into eternity. The joy will be well worth every pain and hurt and trial ever experienced here on Earth.
God bless each of you this 4th of July and remember each day to live for our Lord and Savior.
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