Sunday, July 20, 2008

One Year Ago Today

One Year Ago Today

When I awoke one year ago today

Everything seemed to be going ok

I didn't believe anything would go wrong

We were happy and our family was strong.

You were grinning and enjoying the sun

Lets go get Micah I said, We gotta run


As we climbed in the car one year ago today

Everything was doing ok

You were in a good mood, a big smile on your face

Jacob and Lynnie too

Off we went to pick up Micah

Then we could have fun for a few


We stopped at Wallmart along the way

And everything was still ok

Brand new water shoes, they were bright orange,

Graced your feet as we headed to the car


Waiting for Micah at the church one year ago today

Everything was still doing ok

You ran around having fun and wanting to play

While I chatted with fellow parents

No strong urge or thought to pray


We ate Subway one year ago today

Everything was going ok

You ordered a meatball sub just like your Dad

Nothing warned me that soon I would be so sad.


You and Micah were best buddies one year ago today

And everything sure seemed ok

You both asked "Can we go to the spillway slide to swim?"

Dad and I said yes and off you went.


How I wish I would have taken more time to say goodbye

I couldn't know that my yes meant you would die.

One year ago today my son everything was ok

Until sometime between 2 and 3 that day.


When I answered the phone a year ago today

I didn't know that every thing had forever changed

Everything was not ok!....You my boy had gone away


...Lost in the river?

No it cant be!

Joshua my son!

Come back home to me!


You are so much a part of my life

Not having you here just isn't right

Memories still fill my heart each day

Even now a whole year since you went away...


Beautiful curly hair for me to run my fingers through

Your silly voice saying..."I love you Lynnie Poo"

Funny crab walking up the stairs

Begging to go to county fairs


You liked rap on 104.7

You wanted a green mansion when you got to Heaven

Hiking and swimming, adventures and fun

Your hair getting blond in the hot summer sun


You hated turkey but loved honey baked ham

You were growing into such a tall handsome young man

Cub Scouts, singing, VBS,

teasing siblings and making a mess.


You love to travel and go on trips

most of the knees in your pants had big rips

The girls were starting to fall in love with you

You weren't quite sure what to do


So many memories and thoughts fill my heart

each moment of each day we are apart

Wait for me my son with our dear Lord

'til the day I join you and we receive our reward


I love you Joshua and miss you more then you could imagine!

Every single day since that day....

One year that you went to Heaven


Tricia and Brad said...


I just wanted to let you know that even though we are no longer in WY, we are thinking of Josh today. I have been praying for you all week. It must be so hard for your family today.

tsduff said...

Sal - reliving that day is so hard. I've relived my own recollection of finding out the impossible news many times...the part about saying goodbye, not knowing it was your last time just tears you apart. I paused with you today as you remembered that day. hugs and hugs - to all of you.

Kelly said...

Sally, I didn't have online access to write to you on this memorial weekend, but I've been praying for you all the days leading up to it knowing it would be especially hard. I too relived what I knew of the weekend and prayed for you all the more. Your poem is so poignant and true, honest and real. If only we could rewind it and rewrite the end, but even though it hurts and breaks our hearts, I know that God is the one who writes the best endings. If I tried to rewrite it I would just mess something up even though it might seem happier. Love you Sal...