Puts a new spin on "bag lady"

Are these bag children? The sure look that way....wasted some of my trash bags they did.

Lynnie's Stitches

Little Lynnie's first stitches!!! She has 6 lovely blue stitches on her right knee after gashing it on the lever in the bath tub. She is quite proud of them.

What if I don't want to adapt?

Many times I think I am doing ok

I am living and smiling and planning on a future.

I have 3 wonderful living children.

And then out of the blue I feel so lost again.

I Miss Joshua and want him here with me.

I wrote this poem during one of those missing Joshua moments.

Life keeps changing day by day

even when we want it to always stay the same

Some changes bring happiness and joy

others leave us crying out in pain like the loss of my boy.

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To these changes we must adapt or so I am told,

develop a new sense of what is and let go of the old

I don't want to adapt to this loss, not today.

The loss of my son is not ok.

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I don't want him to be gone

I want him here right now

I want to hug him and gaze upon his face

I want to watch him grow.

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Why can't I still have him?

I want him back some how.

He is supposed to be here with me, his mother

Not in heaven, not yet, not now.

Kids having fun

Micah's new earring in honor of Joshua.

Jacob minus a couple of teeth.

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The next pictures were out in the freezing cold!!! I couldn't stand it for more then a few minutes without gloves on. BRRRRRRRR. The kids had fun sledding.

Merry Christmas

Christmas Stockings

I added our Joshua ornament to our angel between our stockings

We had a white Christmas this year. It snowed all night long. The kids had fun today opening up presents. We just can't help missing Joshua today. He would have been so excited. He loved Christmas. I know he is happy with Jesus celebrating the King in heaven.

Two special people in Heaven

Of the wonderful people in this photo I only have one left here on Earth to keep me company. Luckily Micah has some younger siblings here since the photo to keep us company as well. We love and miss you Mom and Joshua. I am a tad late in the remembering of your leaving us, Mom. I know you were there with arms open wide to greet my dear Joshua. I can't wait for the day you both greet me and we will be together for all eternity.

Happy Times

These were pictures takes at cousin Judy's house in Laramie

This is Lynnie, Joshua, and Jacob

Here is Micah just kicking back.

Cousins getting to know each other: Cody and Jacob

Some more young cousins getting to know each other: Sierra and Lynnie