Wednesday, August 15, 2007

"Guilty" written by Joshua's mom after he died at this spillway in Casper, Wyoming



Guilty!

It's my fault he died

I let him go

if only I had known

I would have said no


Guilty!

I'm the one who mentioned a dare

It's my fault he's gone

It just isn't fair


Guilty!

I should have saved him

jumped right in after

I just wasn't brave enough

to fight off disaster


Where oh Lord does the fault lie

Why oh why did Joshua die?


Which of us is guilty

Who takes the blame

someone must be responsible

for the horrible pain


"My children, None of you

not parent nor friend

can take the blame

for this boy's earthly end


Joshua's tasks

here on earth were complete

I called him home

to spend eternity with me


Oh my child don't you see?

There is no better place

for Joshua to be


I know you will miss him;

he was a part of your life

But his rewards in Heaven

could no longer be denied


Now Joshua is happy and free

He is bouncing and jumping for joy

here with Me


Do not cry for Josh-there is no need

but look to yourselves and assess your own needs

Do you know me child?? I am Jesus the Lord

I am your creator, I am the Word


I am calling for you right now don't you see?

-to learn and discover more about me

Joshua's life has planted the seed

for you to be born again unto me


Admit you can't do it.

You can't get Life right

mistake after mistake...

sin holds you tight


Then look to Me just like Joshua did

and believe I am God's son

make the choice to put me first as your Lord

I promise I am the one


Your sins will be forgiven

your life will be just right

for the tasks that I will give you

You will be able to fight the good fight


And when your tasks are complete

I will call you home to Me

And Joshua will be there too

to enjoy your company"

4 comments:

Cathy said...

Sally, I love you! I am so sorry. I love you.

tsduff said...

Sal and Jeff, that spillway looks so scary now. I've not seen it from that perspective. I'm glad to see your poem published Sal - it is so true. Hugs!

Anonymous said...

Sally Jeff and kids,

Such a beautiful poem. It made me cry - a lot. I try not to think about Joshua too much because it is very painful. It seems like all of life teeters on the edge- so many close calls with our own kids in many different ways. As your poem indicates it can only be the lords passage to bring little Joshua to such a beautiful place as heaven.

We love you guys and think about you every day.
Bryan Misty Cody and Sierra

jeff@sally said...

Cathy: Thank you for stopping by. I love you and think about you often. Hope you and your's our doing well. :)

Terry: That spillway really was Joshua's favorite place. It is usually so peaceful and fun. I think about all the creeks and ponds we played in and had a blast. I still cant imagine why he jumped in when the water was high.

Bryan and Misty: Thank you for stopping by on our site. We often think about you guys and Jacob still asks about Cody. Good memories from Laramie. :)