We lost our beloved 10 year old on July 20,2007. This site is dedicated in loving memory to Joshua Leigh Heyer. May your spirit find pure joy in eternity with our Lord.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Erik and Westley getting ready for the funeral
Getting ready for the funeral surrounded by family and friends.
Not much time for thinking and missing and grieving.
Everything is hustle and bustle. Motion and activity everywhere I look.
Alone I spend time remembering my boy.
Joshua loved this horse at cousin Judy and John's house.
Now, no more distractions. Family has gone home. Boys are in school.
Jeff is at a meeting. Just Lynn and myself right now. Thoughts turn to my boy.
I miss him so much. How can he not be here with me? I see his art on the wall. I look at the bracelet he made me (It says, "I love you Mom). I think of the fun we had just last month. I find his clothes in the laundry still. I cry almost every time I find myself alone. Thinking. To be all gone. Ended in a blink of an eye. It doesn't make sense to my brain or heart. I want him back. God knows it. I have told him so personally. Thank goodness He understands more then we do and doesn't condemn us for our grief. Today is hard. Back to school night is tonight. I will think of sitting in the 4th grade room with Joshua last year as I sit with Micah in the same room tonight. I can't spoil it for Micah. He is excited for a new year. But my heart will ache as I remember and long to be sitting in the 5th grade room with Joshua.